My New Career - Full Time Mom

I would be lying if I didn’t say I am a little nervous about being a FULL TIME STAY AT HOME MOM! Just like any new job, there are worries and fears about the unknown. I have some butterflies and doubts about myself, even though I truly believe this is what is best for my family at this time. Some of my fears are:

-Will I spend too much money because I have more time or I get bored?
-Will I go stir crazy?
-Who will I have adult conversations with?
-Can I come up with enough stuff to keep Emrie entertained all day?
-Am I going to miss working?
-Will I let myself go because I sit on the ground with a kid all day?
-How will I avoid the pitfall of spending too much time on the computer?
-Phil and I had figured out our rhythm, how long will it take to find our new normal?

I can’t answer any of those questions until I actually get started and most people would say I am crazy to even worry about it, but I know I have a type A personality. So to help ease myself into my new career (and I do see it as a career), I have actually made up a daily schedule.

I think of it as a lesson plan or appointments for my day. Like any career, a game plan is necessary and being intentional is a must, otherwise there is low productivity and important things are left up to chance (and I don’t want to leave raising my daughter up to chance).

I also asked Phil to help me set a budget because I really am scared that if I don’t have boundries I will either spend too much money without thinking about it, or I won’t spend any money and be miserable because I am scared of over spending (I think he was surprised, but happy that I wanted him to help me set a limit:). Until I have settled into my new role, I believe being over-prepared will help calm my nerves and get me through the first little uncharted territory.

*Disclaimer- I know I am not normal, so this blog is TOTALLY my own personal issue. I definitely don’t think less of moms who don’t have their day/month scheduled like I do. That just means they are more well-adjusted than I am:)

While I am nervous, I can’t wait to get some of my To Do List done:

-Finish decorating the house (that should take me only a few short weeks….HAHAHAHA;)
-Complete the scrapbooks I have been working on (I’m a few years behind)
-Make dinner every night (okay 4 out of 7 is actually my goal, and by dinner I mean something out of a can or box still counts)
-Finally get all the appointments done that I have been putting off (the dentist, doctor, BMV, car shop, etc. etc. etc.)
-Take Emrie on ‘field trips’ like the zoo and children’s museums and Hobby Lobby (crafting is an important skill she needs to learn at an early age, I am sure Phil would disagree:)
-Re-connect with girlfriends (Shelby and Kasie, I have been neglecting you for way too long, I am sorry)
-Start working out again (and by working out I mean maybe I will go for a run, to the end of the block and walk back…gotta start somewhere)
-Do my quiet time (LONG overdue, plus Ra’Chelle bought me a really cool mommy/daughter Bible)
-Read some books (I really want to read The Help)
-Go to Mallory’s field hockey games (Go Blue…and IU)

Well…that should last me about a month!!!