In some ways it feels like I have been done with high school for multiple decades, and at other times I feel like I am still that adolescent girl; naïve, ambitious and carefree.
I have had incalculable amounts of varying experiences and life lessons learned since high school which have shaped me and my course of life {as I am sure we all have}. Am I where my 18 year old self thought I would be by now? Probably. Did I take the path my 18 year old self projected? Possibly. Am I WHO my 18 year old self thought I would be? I don’t know, but I don’t think so.
Realizing that I am doing and have done what I expected of myself and with some unforeseen detours, I even took the route I expected fills me with a sense of pride. Pride because I knew myself fairly well at a young age, had solid plans and the endurance to execute them. But those are just my accomplishments.
When I think about WHO I have become, I am both frightened and thrilled! Frightened because I am not exactly the person or personality that I expected. I don’t think about things the way I expected I would by now in so many ways; my world view, spiritual principals, parenting philosophy, etc. BUT thrilled because I like who I am and even if I’m not who I envisioned myself to be 10 years ago, it is thrilling to know that I don’t have to limit myself to what I thought I wanted; I can be different, BETTER even! That makes the next ten years something to look forward to; to see how I develop and how God develops me!
It is interesting to reflect on who we were, who we are and who we will become.
And then I wonder…Do we ever really inherently change, or do we just continue to compile our life experiences and develop who we inherently are and have always been?
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